Being a Mother is Hard!!!!!!

Today as I am challenged with little sleep, missed naps, baby waking up early and no time to even take a shower. I just have to breathe…. That’s it, just breathe. Motherhood did not come with a manual. I find myself asking God the little things, and come up empty. I wonder why? And honestly when I ask other mommies, they say its all common and that the heavy burden of guilt is normal and that I must live with it.

I don’t want to live with it, I have enough guilt from the past that tries to creep up. You see this child is a miracle baby and all I want to do is get it right. All my past tells me is that it will be just like I had and that failure is my child’s future. Well, No!!! I am not taking that. I am fighting.

When I ask God, “Why is this so hard for me?” the answer is always the same. His Grace is sufficient. I am not sure what I was thinking, I think that I had a false expectation that once I was able to have a child, things would not be hard anymore. ughhh…. What a false expectation. You see, God wants to work in these areas of my life that have not been touched yet. That aspect of my life of abandonment, rejection and false identity. Today I am being real with you mommies out there. Pray for Grace. I pray for Grace today. I need it bad…..

Here is a scripture to meditate on. I hope it will help you, as it is helping me.

2 Corinthians 12:8-9

I asked the Lord three times to take it away from me. He answered me, “I am all you need. I give you my loving-favor. My power works best in weak people.” I am happy to be weak and have troubles so I can have Christ’s power in me.